This reflection is part of a triptych about POSITIONING:
Where am I and how do I figure me in this world?
Here you can click all three of them:
1- what is it all about? ESSENCE
2- what comes to pass? ON THE EDGE
3- what lies ahead? LIFE EXPECTANCE
Nederlands: LEVENSVERWACHTING
LIFE EXPECTANCE
it all happened
and she lived on
that open-minded child
who thought
that life was feasible
difficult, yes,
but just give it your best
it all happened
and she lived on
the intense adolescent
who buried the pain
deeper and deeper
because trying your best
should
one day, some time
succeed
it all happened
and she lived on
this tired woman
also when she
couldn’t take anymore
the pain too immense
the world in its sense
so brutal to her
rejecting
it all happened
and she lived on
a middle-aged person
keeping herself together
going through the motions
of daily routines
but always
that fear
in the back of her mind
of falling through the cracks
rock bottom
because she
actually
did not
belong
it all happened
and then she heard
in a meditative moment
during Advent:
‘let me live
familiar and safe
at home’
and she read:
‘there was no place for him
at the inn’
and yet
the heavenly creatures announced
that he would shine
not given a place
still made his way
did his thing
his contribution
his very own contribution
this all happened
and I live on
and I ask myself:
how do I get to that place
not so much
in this world
but rather
in my heart
for a
contribution
of my own
reassured
that
connecting to,
contacting in
good Spirit
will do
and she lived on
a middle-aged person
keeping herself together
going through the motions
of daily routines
but always
that fear
in the back of her mind
of falling through the cracks
rock bottom
because she
actually
did not
belong
and then she heard
in a meditative moment
during Advent:
‘let me live
familiar and safe
at home’
and she read:
‘there was no place for him
at the inn’
and yet
the heavenly creatures announced
that he would shine
still made his way
did his thing
his contribution
his very own contribution
and I live on
and I ask myself:
how do I get to that place
not so much
in this world
but rather
in my heart
for a
contribution
of my own
reassured
that
connecting to,
contacting in
good Spirit
will do
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Thanks Marita Sporrong and Anna Little for helping out with this translation.
——–
My bilingual book (Fenna Smilde):
HOW IT ALL CAME TO BE / HOE HET ZO GEKOMEN IS
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