LIFE EXPECTANCE

This reflection is part of a triptych about POSITIONING:
Where am I and how do I figure me in this world?
Here you can click all three of them:
1- what is it all about? ESSENCE
2- what comes to pass? ON THE EDGE
3- what lies ahead? LIFE EXPECTANCE

Nederlands: LEVENSVERWACHTING

LIFE EXPECTANCE

it all happened
and she lived on
that open-minded child
who thought
that life was feasible
difficult, yes,
but just give it your best

it all happened
and she lived on
the intense adolescent
who buried the pain
deeper and deeper
because trying your best
should
one day, some time
succeed

it all happened
and she lived on
this tired woman Continue reading

ON THE EDGE

This reflection is part of a triptych about POSITIONING:
Where am I and how do I figure me in this world?
Here you can click all three of them:
1- what is it all about? ESSENCE
2- what comes to pass? ON THE EDGE
3- what lies ahead? LIFE EXPECTANCE

Nederlands: RANDGEVAL

ON THE EDGE

believing
the path
that you walk
slippery
but sustained
by cross bearing

not a rosegarden
never promised
perhaps a rosary
if you have piety

stepping into life
full of faith
backup at hand

but
overwhelmed
so many turns Continue reading

ESSENCE

This reflection is part of a triptych about POSITIONING:
Where am I and how do I figure me in this world?
Here you can click all three of them:
1- what is it all about? ESSENCE
2- what comes to pass? ON THE EDGE
3- what lies ahead? LIFE EXPECTANCE

Nederlands: WEZEN-LIJK

ESSENCE

wrestling with rooting
because
not in earth
but in thing
just big enough
for living
but not for
developing

ungrounded
I sprout forth
though stunted
I reach out
getting stuck
and yet
I go on
any-way
but Continue reading

IN A NEWSPAPER

My first 30 fables are now collected in a book !!!

klik hier voor Nederlands

interview in EdeStad.nl

17 Oct. 2018, this interview about my book was published in the newspaper: Ede-Stad, written by Mathilde van Ravensberg who also made the photo.

“Fabulous debut book by Fenna Smilde
Thirty animal stories that mirror human behaviour.

Fables that make you think. Fenna Smilde from Ede likes this genre very much. For some years, she has written fables herself that she published on her website Femmka.net. Thirty of her insightful animal stories are now collected in her debut book ‘How it all came to be.’
The reader gets acquainted with Continue reading

HIT by SPIRIT

Nederlands: hier

HIT by SPIRIT

(Pentecost greeting)

all on fire
celebrating
that you are spirited
and not just material

friend-ly
to yourself
and to others

make it a hit
this spirit
of yours !

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Thanks Marita, for your help with translating

UPLIFTING

Nederlands: hier

UPLIFTING
(statues: “Chico y Chica” and “Tumbado” by Juan Ripollés)

(Easter greeting)

it could be
about eggs
or even a bunny
or about spring
coming soon

for me
Easter is
commemorating
the death blow
that was inflicted
on Evil

wherefore
you can rise
from soul-killing patterns
and like Continue reading

STEP BY STEP

TEASER, whole fable in book

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STEP BY STEP

It was an early spring day in the animal forest. Everybody had kind of recovered from the winter but was not yet back in their stride with spring energy.
“Maybe”, said the cockatoo, “it would be nice to go out for a while, on a little spring trip?”
“That sounds fun”, said the butterfly. “Just flutter about for a bit. Perhaps someone wants to join us?” She looked at the dragonfly who was visiting.
“Oh” and: “Oh, oh, …”, said the dragonfly, “I would but …”
“Let’s leave ‘but’ at home”, said the sheep, who was also visiting. “I’ll come along with you.”
And so it came to be that a little group of animals decided to hit the road, that early spring in the animal forest.
“Let’s make Continue reading

DREAM SCENARIO

Nederlands: hier

DREAM SCENARIO

today will be different
today I let go of everything
today I hold on to everything
today I know
which way to go

so I walk into today
see this bench near the riverside
inviting me to sit down
cherished by the sun
becalmed
while everything around me moves

wind blows the leaves
traffic goes by
boats float
a flower airs fragrance
passengers pass by

I am Continue reading

UNDERSTANDING

TEASER, whole fable in book

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UNDERSTANDING

UNDERSTANDING

The ladybug was sitting in front of his house. He hardly ever did, since he was away so often, travelling. Now he was home though, enjoying sitting on his bench in the sun. Suddenly, he heard some buzzing. The mosquito came flying by.
Oh, no, thought the ladybug, I so much dislike that sound. It’ll only end up in something being buzzed around about me that’s only half true or not true at all.
Earlier, he used to be bothered a lot by that, because what’s not right, is not right and should not be spread around the world as truth. However, there’s no way you can straighten it all out, so now he mostly found it weird, because what’s not right, is not right and the animals who did not know him, were likely Continue reading

BONDING

Nederlands: hier

BONDING

BONDING

a WEDDING-reflection
for my sons and daughters-in-law

let’s celebrate
our humanness
whose essence is
connectedness
in their search for that
they want to go together

two individuals
each their own bundle of molecules
mixture of chemical processes

the pheromones
the hormones
did they bring them together?
attraction
and following up
on instincts;
impulse driven?

undoubtedly

but
is that all
there is?

personally I think
history shows us
that Continue reading

RESTORED

Nederlands: hier

RESTORED

RESTORED

I’ve known them
the troubled times
of suffering
all going wrong
nothing works out
so alone

I’ve known them
the moments
of despair
not knowing where
to belong
on this earth

I’ve known them
the dark tunnels
without end
so visionless empty
and damp
of tears

I’ve known them
and now here I stand
and I can say Continue reading

HABITUAL VEILING MASK

Nederlands: hier

"The Lovers" --- Brugge, Belgium sculpted by: Livia Canestraro & Stefaan Depuydt

“The Lovers” — Brugge, Belgium
sculpted by: Livia Canestraro & Stefaan Depuydt

she had seen him
and he had watched too
they had circled each other
and had stepped back again
but then
they dared to dance
and when
they swirled
they were attracted
by the mystery
and stayed together

but why then
does she not really see him
why then
does he not reach her through and through
stagnation
of growth in relation

because Continue reading

GETTING TO KNOW

TEASER, whole fable in book

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GETTING TO KNOW

GETTING TO KNOW

“Look who I ran into”, said the cockatoo to the butterfly. The butter-fly fluttered joyfully towards him and gave the cockatoo a big kiss, glad that the cockatoo was home again.
“Well, well, who do we have here? I am the butterfly”, said the butterfly, greeting the newcomer.
“Porcupine”, said the porcupine, who did not have many words yet because everything was still very new to him.
“Please, do come in,” said the butterfly, “and we’ll drink some of our best velvety vintage juice.”

A little farther away, the grumpy bear fumbled Continue reading

CHARGING

Nederlands: hier

charging

charging

if you can’t keep it up
I’ll let it hang for you
if you can’t stay tall
I’ll widen myself for you

the world rages
and if a hard wind blows
I’ll bend along for you

and when I do all this
would you then in that shelter
remind yourself that
no matter what
it’s better
to charge yourself
from the wells of Continue reading

THE MOMENT

Nederlands: hier

the moment

the moment

She had lost her grip. She lifted up her eyes and thought: where does my help come from. But she turned them down again, dizzy. Lost my grip, how often didn’t people say that? And how often was it so true as it was now.

Where does my help come from? Such an old, long forgotten sentence came to mind. Now, now that she had lost her grip. Psalm verses popping up in critical moments: was religion in the end proving to be something essential? They say it’s never too late to convert, but to be actually doing that now, would be Continue reading

BALANCE

balance

balance

Life is such a fine line
A road that’s o, so small
And if your steps go sideways
You’re heading for a fall

refr: ..oh, how I could use them to survive
……….some wings that make me fly
……….but until I know how that is to do
……….I’ll just balance my way through

Sometimes I wonder why then
The lifepath Continue reading

THE HOBBY SPACE

Nederlands: hier

The hobby space

The hobby space
photo found on the internet, it looks like it’s free of rights
if not, please contact me

They say it cannot be, that they are strange imaginations, that can never become reality. How do they know, while they do not know what he knows?

He lives here in this big building where everybody has their own lodging, apart from the community areas that are in it. It’s crowded, but the good part is that he runs into people and can have a talk. The only nuisance is when they start interfering too much with him. Interest is fine, but they shouldn’t start patronizing or dictating to him what to do.

Downstairs, in the cellars, are separate little rooms. For people like him. People who need a place for their experiments. It took a while, – they did not know if it would be safe -, but in the end, they were Continue reading

WHOLE

Nederlands: hier

WHOLE

WHOLE

always
a two track approach
in me

……….*outgoing
……….persistently seeking
……….understanding contact
……….at all costs

……….*withdrawn
……….isolating myself
……….in a protective cocoon
……….till enrichment emerges

alternately
I tried
to Continue reading

RELIEF

TEASER, whole fable in book

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RELIEF

The ladybug was home again.* His house was just a small one because mostly he was on the road, he travelled a lot. The ladybug, you know, was asked everywhere to show his skills. He was very good at moving to music. When music was heard and the ladybug moved to it, it generated emotions in the spectators, even more so than when they were just listening.
“Hi ladybug”, said the dragonfly.
“Hello there”, said the ladybug and warmly gave the dragonfly two kisses. The dragonfly blushed all over.
“You know,” said the dragonfly, “I never dared to say this, but often I can’t help but Continue reading

A-WAY

My bilingual book (Fenna Smilde):
HOW IT ALL CAME TO BE / HOE HET ZO GEKOMEN IS
psychological fables / psychologische fabels

TO ORDER: webshop with English navigation or more: information

A-WAY

Nederlands: hier / Français: ici

ONDER-WEG--A-WAY--EN ROUTEyou step forward
to live a sharing life
you pursue your way
so much to give

you turn inside
to learn a lot
you roam around
to sort it all out

you turn outside
having so much to pass on
but you bump into Continue reading

KEEPING

whole fable

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KEEPING

On a balmy summer day, the butterfly was fluttering from flower to flower and was letting herself be caressed by the afternoon sun. The butterfly was busy not being too busy, when suddenly a shadow glided over her. The butterfly looked up and saw the most beautiful flying creature she had ever seen.
Look, thought the butterfly, the blackbird is simply black, the sparrow grey, but this bird is … exuberant!
Yes, thought the butterfly, who did not exactly know what exuberant was, but still thought: Continue reading